i am a  werewolf

Step 1: Put your iTunes or equivalent on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Bold out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING


1. Stuck in school learning rules we’ll find out just who we are

2. Harden up to everyone emotions all dead face first in the mud a lost cause upside down

3. These are all the reasons why ill be exploding tonight and why this chip on my shoulder feels a mile

4. So there it lies the whole mistake it eats away on us it feeds my mistakes

5. Hey, riot riot riot come on lets go riot riot riot come on lets go

6. Suzanne your all that I wanted in of girl

7. Man its really strange this city never stays the same its always ive got to keep on moving ive got to keep on going but maybe its to keep it
self sane

8. Living with me I don’t think it would be so bad this is the first time this year that im not going to make you mad

9. The position being taken is not to be mistaken for attempted education or righteous accusation

10 .Got out of bed today im alive what can I say, im really happy to be somewhere with someone who makes me happy. I took the bus down
town

11. If you lose me then you lose a good thing. Then you lose a good thing and that’s one thing I know for sure.

12. Please go away wont you leave me alone im just so drunk and miserable. You started with me started with me

13. Dear I fear were facing a problem you  love me no longer I know

14. boxed up all of her favorite things sold the rest at a rainy yard sale

15. Well all my life this music saved me I cant afford your therapy my frustration it needs release

16. We trusted you we put out a helping hand only in return we get a stabbing in the back

17. The kids sing out in defiance against a world that has forgotten them and the media asks why are the kids so angry

18. You were tenderly afflicted and it was cold as hell there was nobody there that you could tell

19. Desert night under the lonely starts cruisen down the high way takes me farther from home.

20. Ive got nothing to say anymore theres nothing new its all done before not looking to settle the score

21. Im staring out into that vaccum again from the back porch of my mind

22. Run run run all you do is fucking run but you’ll never run away form your self.

23. I didn’t trust  him cuase he smiled at me first just like the wold before he bites me

24. We fliped the finger to the king of England and stole our country from the Indians

25. I am such a sucker and im always the last to know, my insides are copper

26. in the quickness of our haste it seems we forgot how to live the old blueprint no longer manifests

27. I met some people along the way some of them split some of them stayed

28. Hey ron the next time your freaked at me for calling you out on the quidith pitch

29. Oh pirates yes they rob I

30. I don’t want this responsibility don’t use me because I don’t agree.

i just finished reading Still Can't see Nothin' Comin' for maybe the tenth or so time since it was first introduced to my when i was a sophomore in high school. and of course i am crying... like always.

it was one of the first real books i had ever read just for me, i'm not even sure if i actually read it for me or if it was just to seem like a reader but whatever the case i have continued to read it in my life. i feel a connection to this book more than someone who just really enjoys a book. very similar to the movie Orange County when the main character finds the book in the sand and it changes his life. i only know of two people who have read this book and both of us have had fairly similar reactions mine may have been bit more deep then there's was but still it was the same type.

i want to leave this book on a beach or in a park or somewhere that someone will find it and read it and maybe just maybe in some strange way we will be connected too.



""stop! I do need you,  you bitch! I called you because I care about you! You make me bleed, Leslie. You gut me. You want a confession? You stab me, you get to see my guts. I love you . Okay? Does that make you happy? Are you happy now that you're all the way inside me? I love you. I'm saying that here , now and i know i haven't said it in a real long time. I left you 'cause I love you. I didn't want to drag you down with me. Can't you see that, Leslie! I mean, did you really want to come? Did you want this? " I looked up at her then, having said all this to the glove compartment, and turned my forearms up toward her eyes, showing her the scars like stripes up and down them. She was bawling now, real hard. Looking at her like that made me want to hold her again, and touch her face like I used to, wipe away her tears. When I spoke again i had quit yelling."


LOVE xo

so i read this online comic about indie scenesters and there goings on. lately it has been making me think. music has always been part of my life and being in bands is one of the most exciting things i have done. so i have decided i am gong to put together a band and i was thinking about starting an indie band like one of those bands that almost dares you to like them because they might not be that good but its so obscure that you have to like it so you can keep your indie cred'. then i got a little concerned what if i did start this obscure indie band that isn't that good but makes for good cred, and we got huge because so many of the indie hipsters wanted to be cool and buy our record then were on MTV and vh1 and everyone knows who we are.... i don't know if i could live making a lot of money from something i started as kind of a joke. and what if the people i found to start this band with were really into the "sound" we've created what then?

i don't know it would be kind of exciting tho. well we will see where it goes look out for
"the black smiths assistant"

I'm sorry that I'm getting chubby
And I cannot always be happy for you
And I am not some lame sorority queen
Taking you home to meet my Daddy

You collect your trustfund baby
And I'll be a whore
And we'll pretend we're just the same but
I know I know I know I know I know that

I, I am hiding
The YOU I show to YOU is just a lie
You take what you want, you get what you take
You take what you want, you get what you take
But I got something man, that your fucking money cannot buy

You never know, never know, never know what
You'll never know, never know, never know what
You wanna take it but you cannot have it
You don't know what it's like to be alive

I could scream my truth, if I wanted
Right through your lies
But your baseball bat words, razormouth
Carves your initials bloody in my thighs

i am sick of not being attractive.

i mean no one else cares about it but i would feel better when i looked in the mirror

OK here it goes.
alkaline trio-agony and irony. its a good album not there but work tho. its not as dark as the others seem to be but i would still say you should go out and buy it.

THE DARK KNIGHT-fucking amazing. those two words are all that i need to describe it. the joker is amazing you forget that it is even heath ledger.    it has been confirmed that my 2008 Halloween costume will be the joker i am starting to same my money now so i can buy a good costume. i know that a lot of people will choose to dress like the joker but i don't care.

so this week i have watched bouncing souls: do you remember and against me!: were never going home they are both like band bio/ tour documentaries for the respective bands. both of them have reminded me how much i miss being in a band and part of a scene. i need to find a band and find some good shows.....we need a place like the grange down here. as much as that place was terrible is was some of the best times of my life.

Cameron was here last weekend i cut her hair and then we went out and partied. we went to this bar that i have been wanting to go to since i saw it when i was first looking for an apartment. its called the star club. i thought it was going to be a rad kind of punk rock bar nope i was wrong. first off there was a cover so that was kind of lame but what ever we walk in the drinks were cheap and there was kill switch engage playing on the juke so i was thinking alright this will be cool. well the next song that came on was usher BAD SIGN RIGHT THERE we started looking around and realized that first off everyone there was ugly except us and then all the dudes were wannabe bros and the chicks were bro hoes we had one drink and bounced. after that we were over it so we went to the store and bought hot pockets ice cream and fruit. we walked back home and watched the 89 batman. it was a lot of fun.


so for the rest of my life lets see. um well i am super excited because next week the new core class starts and i am going to be a mentor that is going to be so much fun. school is going super awesome. i will be graduating at the end of October and its a little scary. I've started applying for jobs i did like 20 online app and next week i am going to go into stores and apply. i am getting prepared to do my first vlog, but i feel like it will just be me ranting about some stupid topic for a few minutes. it could be cool who knows? OK well this is were i will leave you for now.



fake it till you make it
love you all

This fortune brought to you,
Is it worth the pain, the suffering?

Time Out
Please just a second here to sit and stare
I’ve wasted time today
I told myself I wouldn’t wait

I’m shaking down 
to the rhythm of a lost cause
but its certainly found by me

and Hey girl
Are you calling for me
and I’m bored as can be
without any worries
Challenging me...
Should I give up everything?
should I give up everything?

some times i feel like im just wasting time.

so I'm watching this documentary on the national geographic channel called "inside straight edge" its this whole thing about how straight edge is a gang. i think its really messed up. i am friends with a lot of straight edge kids and they are no more a gang than we are. the funny thing about it is that they really only focused on kids that were posi and the only hate edge kids they talked to said that they were a small group of kids. i love how cops and "authority" can take something so good and positive for the youth of today and turn it into this terrible thing just because they don't understand or want to understand a bunch of kids who go into a dark warehouse to listen to some hardcore bands on Friday night instead of going out and getting drunk like "the normal kids". yeah i drink and party sometimes but its not who i am. i would feel more at home with a bunch of straight edge kids than i would with those "normal kids". straight edge is a awesome movement it is one that the members should be proud of it is one that the non members should be supportive of.


i know i just kind of ranted about this i don't know why but it just really bothers me when something that is such a positive force in the hardcore/punk scene is trashed like that.


i need to go to a hardcore show.

so i always start every post saying that i am going to start using this more, but i have decided that i like my habit of posting every 3 months, so on with the post.


    first off, Vegas-so wonderful we all had a blast. i will start with Saturday. OK i went to school and all the people that were going didn't really do anything we all just hung out and talked about how excited we were. after school i packed and waited for Michelle to show up she got here at about 630. i had told her that she could stay at my place so she didn't have to have someone drive her from encinitas. so she came and we colored my hair and such then we went to dinner at hard rock cafe (she had never been to one) then we decided it would be fun to go into the hustler store. it was fantastic!  we saw some of the scariest vibrators ever, my penis decided that it cant compete with all the battery operated counter parts. robots really are taking over every job people used to do. after we were done there we went back and watched old school about 1230 we started to drift off to sleep so i went to my bed and she laid down on the couch. then her phone rings and we both wake up and at this point we say fuck it ALL-NIGHTER, the night goes on and its all just crazy we felt like we were on meth.

then it becomes Sunday we head off to school for the bus. the bus ride is fairly uneventful i got a little drunk. and then we got there. one of my roommates didnt show up so me and Marcus each got our own bed (we told people that we were sharing a bed it was funny). so after i get all settled in the room i meet up with Michelle, brookey (new character addition) staby geebs and ultra violet. we were all starving so we found a pizza hut and ate then it was the time we had all been waiting for YARDGARITAS you know the big ass margarita. yeah we drank and walked down the strip then took a cab to the palms where we did jager bombs we pretty much just started yelling jager bombs and skanks after that. palms was lame so we went back to the mandalay bay. Michelle and brookey decided to go clubbing so me staby and ultra violet decided to go chillaxin so we went exploring. we found the Robert cromeans salon and took pics in front of it then we had a dance party on a ledge of a fountain. then we were going to see the sharks but it was like 20 bucks and in our drunken state decided 20 dollars was way too much to spend to see a shark even tho sober i think i would have paid it. so at this point its mid night and we all went back because they told us there would be room checks those liars.

now its Monday,  free and hung over morning we all went to the buffet where we stayed through part of the lunch, way to get 2 meals for the price of one. then we had some classes to go to. so we went it was really cool we got to hear john Paul Mitchell speak which was uber awesome. then we got to hear Robert cromeans talk, this was more exciting for the people from other schools but he is our school owner so he basically comes in all the time and we know him on a personal level.  then Winn claybaugh talked he has talked to us to but its always awesome to hear it. he is so motivational.  then after that we had a few hours until the party. ultra violet decided that she needed something to wear to the party and me and staby decided that we needed more YARDGARITAS so we went to the mall at the end of the strip we only fulfilled 2/3 of our goal and yes we would like the extra tequila shot for only a dollar more. we go back to the hotel and change as I'm walking to the party the extra shot hits me and i feel pretty good so by the time i get there i am ready to dance SCREW GUYS I JUST WANT TO DANCE STAND AROUND IN A CIRCLE AND DANCE.  so we find some peeps from our school and i drag everyone on to the dance floor, i don't know why i wanted to dance so much but it was so much fun. I'm pretty sure all the girls from the other schools thought i was gay but that's OK i think most of them were skanks. (j/k they were pretty nice) so after dancing and making an ass of my self the rest of the night is kind of boring we all just hung out in the casino pretending to gamble to get free drinks. no tonight one of our teachers says that even tho they didnt do a room check last night they were doing one tonight....again we are all fooled. but that's OK we had a busy day and i didnt want to be hung over.

now its Tuesday we have to be checked out of the room and down at breakfast by 8....boo. but we go. the breakfast was lame i got there right as there was nothing left but that's OK it was super concentrated orange juice and bran muffins. then class starts. YAY there is a cool presentation from the advanced academy teachers and then we start working. we learned this sick hair cut. oi cant really describe it because i'm not sure if you will really understand my crazy beauty school jargon. but if you would like me to just ask or i can cut it for you. then we had lunch..lame it was a boxed lunch good  but lame. then we went for color class. we learned a really awesome color placement technique i can show you on the doll head. its super awesome. then after that we had about an hour and a half to kill before the bus came and then we left. the bus ride wasn't that long and we almost got into 2 separate accidents. (fast and the furious 4: taking the bus) and that was my Vegas trip. i'm surprised that with the pot booze and lack of sleep i remember almost every single detail of the trip. this was just an over view if you want specifics or just more stories then just ask me, and i promise pics will be up soon on my space and face-book.


the news of this week. i cut a chunk of my finger off. yeah it looks a lot worse then it is but i went to the er and they basically laughed at me. so its all good. i have been taking a picture of it every night and once its all healed i am going to make a video and put it on you-tube, like that guy that took a picture of him self everyday.


i saw bad religion tonight it was amazing. they played 3 nights in a row at the house of blues, each night had a different theme tonight's theme was blast from the past so it was all the good stuff from like suffer to the gray race. it was awesome and that's all the best bad religion material. they also played some from new maps of hell they played LA is burning but told us that they changed to the title to San Diego is burning in honor of our fires we just had. then the played sorrow then they did 2 acoustic songs which was aaamazing.

i find it kind of funny that i get tired at school where I'm sitting down for about half the day but i go to a show and stand on one foot holding my fist in the air and screaming my lungs out while getting pushed from all directions and walk out like I'm on meths.




this was a good Post, oh i will be in San Ramon next week end so if you are there too maybe i will see you.

fake it till you make it
love you all

    Looking back on everything moving to San Diego for Paul Mitchell has been one of the best two decisions I have ever made. But sometimes it gets lonely I have made some friends and stuff but they are all school friends, and even though I love them sometimes I don’t want to see them on the weekends.  Then I just sit at home and think about what all of my other friends are doing. But its not so bad because sometimes the week is just so long and stressful that all I want to do is sit in my apartment and watch TV. But still there is something missing.

    I feel lonely on the inside, you know what I mean. there is a whole that needs to be filled but I cant fill it because the puzzle piece isn’t ready to go in.

    It was so wonderful to spend new years with everyone. I was so happy to be back and feel like we all were a family again, but even that’s hard. I cried my self to sleep because I knew that I had to leave that all and I wouldn’t get to be a part of it for a while. Sometimes I just don’t know what to I’m not sure who I can really talk to because everyone says “Dan seems a lot happier than he has in long time” and yeah I am pretty fucking happy but sometimes I get sad, but I feel like that if I try and talk about it they think that I don’t like school or that I’m just giving up because its hard. When really its just that I’m sad or lonely or what have you.

Sorry that this was really serious and kind of depressing but I needed to say this stuff.


On a lighter note I think I am going to see the pandas tomorrow afternoon.

Fake it till you make it

Love you all.




wanna wake up naked next to you, kissing the curve in your clavicle.

omg i just saw sweeney Todd, it is amazing. i really want to see it again. it was so well the cast did an amazing job. i loved the kid who played Toby. it was just so amazing, but one of the best parts about it was my friends didn't really get it and were confused and creeped out. it was really funny to watch them.  my friend Kevin who sat next to just got up and left once throats started being slashed. he was like "OK I'm done with this."  and Chandler leaned up from behind me and was like Dan this is really creepy and weird. then after she told me she was going to have nightmares about it. which made me laugh. but it made me really sad because all my loves back home are gonna go see it together and even though i love my new friends it would have been so much more rewarding to see it with you all.


I'm sad that i wont be home much. i miss all of you guys. and I'm already trying to make plans i have like 3.3 days there and about 90 gazillion. things to do with you all.

gahhh. i still want you all to have fun...with out me i know its hard but try. i will be home on the 29th, at about 9. who wants to be the first to play with me that slot is still open.


fake it till you make.
see you soon love.

today at school was our men's cut test which means

OK drum roll please.........
i did my first hair cut on a real person. that's right i did it i cut my uncles hair and it turned out really good i think. he seemed to like it and my teacher and Emili said that it looked good. but it felt so good and so right. Ive really put my blood sweat and tears into this..yeah i cut my self the very first cut into his hair cut i pinched my fingers with my shears, but i didn't realize and my friend violet who was in the station next to me said hey your bleeding. it was kind of funny. school i so going so good. this was such a good decision.

so right now were in protege week, or proteslave week as DJ puts it. it basically means that we are the bitch of someone of the creative team and we have to wash hair and blow dry and that kind of shit, but starting on Tuesday i get real clients, can you believe that...i cant.


everyone should come get a hair cut from me.


so other than school i don't really have much of a life all the people i have met have been from school. luckily they have all been really cool Ive gone out with a couple people a couple times. San Diego was a good movie for me. getting out of that house has done wonders for me.

i miss San ray ray tho. i want to come home for a weekend even tho most of everyone is still away, really you guys need to come visit me. i will show you a good time. and hook you up with a haircut.

i feel like I'm rambling so i will stop but i miss you a lot and now that i have so many good things to talk about i feel like i will be posting more often.

fake it till you make it

peace and love.

this week i had my floor test and i did really good. i got an A on it and i am so excited. its really scary now tho because tomorrow i start protege week which means i will be on the floor as an assistant for the phase two kids. oh man this is scary.

ok i will post more about school and Halloween and my life soon.

fake it till you make it...
love you all

all of southern California is on fire. you don't need to worry I'm still OK, school is cancelled so i guess i get a day off.


Bad Religion Lyrics

Los Angeles Is Burning

Somewhere high in the desert near a curtain of a blue
The sane man skirts under the wind
But down here in the city of the lime lights
The fans of santa ana are witherin'
And you can't deny that living is easy
If you never look behind the scenery
It's showtime for drag lines
And bedlam is dreamin' of rain

When the hills of Los Angeles are burnin'
Palm trees are candles in the murder wind
So many lives on the breeze
Even the stars are ill at ease
And Los Angeles is burnin'

This is not a test
Of the emergency broadcast system
When malibu fires and radio towers
Conspire to dance again
And I cannot believe the media Mecca
They're only trying to battle reality, catch it on prime time, story at nine
The whole world is goin' insane

When the hills of Los Angeles are burnin'
Palm trees are candles in the murder wind
So many lives are on the breeze
Even the stars are ill at ease
And Los Angeles is burnin'

A clock that reads
The end of days
Shotgun roundabouts are bending in the haze

More a question than a curse
How could hell be any worse?

The flames are startin'
The cameras runnin'
So take warnin'

When the hills of Los Angeles are burnin
Palm trees are candles in the murder wind
So many lives are on the breeze
Even the stars are ill at ease
And Los Angeles is burnin

Welcome back to my life. 

So I’ve been living in san Diego now for 41 days and I love it. This has been definitely one of my best decisions.
School is awesome. I finally understand how some of you feel about school and how its really important. I love it there and I’m making so many good friends here is a break down of how its been so far:
Week one was introduction week. We learned all the rules of the school and got all our stuff (getting our kits was like Christmas come early.) that week we also did this thing called “shot in the arm” it is a really cool thing they do to break the ice and get us all comfortable with each other. We had two activities there the first was about six of us sat in a circle and had to pretend we were planning a party each person in the circle was given a label of coarse mine was the slut we could only see the other peoples label but not our own. This was done to show that no body likes labels. It was fun. The other activity was that we had to go from one end of the room to the other only standing on books and we always had to be touching someone. This was a lot of fun and it broke up the awkwardness because once you’ve touched someone you feel comfortable talking to them. That week we also got to shampoo each other that was fun.

Week two, was color week this week was pretty intense with note taking it was cool but I wish we could have done more hands on that week.

Week three was CUTTING WEEK, this was so much fun except for the fact that I didn’t get it as much as I would have liked. I need more practice.

Week four was texture week. We learned how to do perms and relaxers and hot irons which are crazy and kind of look like torture devices.

This week is spa week. Today we learned how to do make up and guess what as a student I get a 20% discount at Mac stores. Which is awesome except I don’t wear makeup. Also this week we are learning manicures pedicures and facials

The class is really cool every day we have mentors which are advanced students who come in to help us learn.
We have some really awesome mentors.
Chandler is our Wednesday mentor she is just so awesome and funny and silly. She’s great
Denae is our Tuesday mentor she is a lot like me we have the same kind of sense of humor.
Emili is our Thursday mentor, she is loud and hilarious and always has a funny store to share
DJ is our Saturday mentor and he is really cool we really hit it off too bad I’m not gay because he is a cutie.

And I’ve made some really cool friends I just hope we start hanging out more.


But just so you guys back home know. I love you guys just as much I still love each and everyone of you more than I ever have and I will never forget about you guys. Come visit me…



Ok this was way too much for one post, but expect some more posts more often.

Fake it till you make it.

i feel disgusting. i cant even look at my self.